December 17, 2007
Sometimes I wonder if I am trying to hard, or probably it is how I really am.
I am so close to just giving up, ending this emotional game.
I really am absolutely tired , and self worthlessness starts to develop.
I am tired of the forlorn attempts.
However, I just cannot seem to stop trying each time. Trying to find that special someone.
For all I really hope for, is that simple request to be granted.
I will not lie, I feel empty and hollow inside.
For all the tears I have shed, they do not seem to help.
For the times I have cried, will never make up the pain that I feel.
Sometimes, giving up seems to be the only choice left.
Maybe I am not meant for anyone.
I feel alone. Really I do and I will not conceal it anymore.
Love will find you when you can’t find it.
If you try too hard, what you find will be what you want and not what you need.
It all takes time Ray, when you let nature takes its course, the right one will somehow appear.
Though I’m not all into believing that we all have THE one. Love you nonetheless, cheer up and be patient.
Be patient ok love? The right one will come along:)