I fucking hate this semester..

I swear..

Fucking hate this semester.

School has been really hectic..

I emphasize.. REALLY.

and I am still feeling miserable, as usual.

My latest music addiction,

Saosin- You’re not alone

Here’s the video to the song

I’m an emotional wreck.

A helpless emotional wreck.

How long can I remain being like this?

Exhausted

Hello to one and all! I am finally updating this journal of mine after a few days of absence. So what have I been up to lately, I was busy getting myself involved in red camp 4 from Wednesday to Friday. The whole event was fabulous, pretty much like the last year’s red camp 3 but it was totally a different experience though. Reason being, I was one of the student leaders for my group which also means that I had help guide the students along the route and making sure the students are safe and sound. Also not forgetting, we had to lift up the mood of the students, making them feel really comfortable in the group.

I was really busy on the first day of event . Despite supposedly being on MC leave, I decided to pop down to red camp since I was feeling a little better. The day consisted of conducting tours with the other FMSA members at the FMS block, bringing them to the health and life sciences schools( I had so much fun with the other student leaders when we tried out the cryogenic biscuits) and finally leading them back to the convention centre for their CCA showcase programme.

The second day was the pretty much same, guiding the students to and fro the engineering school and taught them the mass dance.

The last day was fortunately better than the other two. Partly because it IS the last day after all and it is during the last day when everyone will feel a little emotional or hyped up more. I missed the Business School’s cluster programme though, due to med soc class. Damn, I heard that it was quite fun though. Okay anyway, the day was the best rather. Some of the red campers took pictures with me and knowing me, I could not resist taking more pictures. Oh I must not omit this out, this year’s Jam and Hop was great. Frankly, I did not stay through out the whole programme. I just went for the last few hours , and that was when Andrew Chow from Zouk started spinning. My lord, the songs that he played were so good. All the old hits to the current ones, really great. I could not resist but to dance for two solid hours. Surprise surprise, I can dance after all. Okay probably not like how Andrew( my classmate) executes his sleek , sexy dance moves but more like shaking and at least moving to the beat, more clubby way. This makes really anticipate my eighteenth birthday more!

I shall stop here with my red camp 4 updates. Overall, it was a really good event. Although it was really tiring juggling the school curriculum with my red camp slots, I guess it was worth it after all. I did receive a note from two of the red campers. Very sweet of them I must say.

I do have to add about one of the tribe’s uncivilized act during an event. It was so out of control that it had an adverse effect on the red campers and student leaders.

Okay Digressing.

School is and have always been stressful. Let me emphasize STRESSFUL. The graphic communication assignment is due next friday and I am not close to even finishing it.agh

I better start finishing my assignment as soon as possible.

I send my condolences to the families of the five dragon boaters. May we all hope for and anticipate their return.

Life is short. Treasure it while you can

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What a bad time to fall ill ..

Reasons being ,

(1) Assignments are due really soon

(2) Group meetings are very important.

(3) Red camp is just tomorrow.

Oh lord. Of all days..why must it be today.

I apologize to my classmates if I am unable to attending group meetings with you all. Thank you to those who showed concern.

Of Stardust and a really bad Sunday.

My oh my, today has been a really horrible day for me. I woke up this morning feeling unwell,with a really sore throat and it irritates the hell out of me. Furthermore, I was suppose hit the gym with my father early in the morning but I was too exhausted to get out of bed. Probably I have too worn out from the whole week of school, which is totally inevitable. I foresee that next week will be worst because red camp commences on Wednesday. School starts early and ends late for me tomorrow, on tuesday and basically, everyday.

On a lighter note, I am glad that red camp is finally here. After attending the red camp student leaders’ camp, it really got me anticipating for the arrival of the camp. It is going to be amazing this year. I can still clearly remember being one of the secondary school leavers at last year’s red camp. This year will be a totally new experience since I will be part of the student leaders. I guess most of us students leaders are ready and roaring to go. I shall digress.

I know I have been feeling really under the weather lately and it seems to be affecting me one way or another. I do not know anymore what I should do . Letting go is my last resort and it has reached to that level. Despite my attempts to let go earlier, it still failed because this is something that I find it most difficult to just forget.

Thank god for yesterday. Diyana, Jeremy , Si hui and I studied in starbucks at Tanglin Mall yesterday. I absolutely agree with Jeremy that it was relatively productive. I managed to get one more logo done and to finish up the concepts of the other logos that I have created already. Obviously we did not sit and study for the few hours spent, we took a break and decided to go check out the flea market. The items on sale mainly consisted of apparel and books. I got for myself the book, “The Devil wears Prada” for five dollars. Freaking cheap and worth it I must say. I heard of how different the book and the movie is that made really tempted to purchase it.

After studying , we rushed down to the Grand Cathy to catch Stardust. Oh my god. The movie was fantastic and the seats we got offered a really good view. Personally, I prefer Stardust to Harry Potter. It is not that I have something against Harry Potter but Stardust really got me glued to it. Without a doubt, Neil Gaiman is a fantastic writer. His books really stirs your imagination and gets you glued to them.

The movie does have a sublime message. The one you end up being with, might not definitely be the one you like but might be the one who you do not expect to be with. If you have not got the chance to catch the movie, I urge you to do so soon. I rate this movie four out of five stars. It is definitely worth a watch.

Moving on, I was browsing through several videos in youtube to find the rehearsal video of Britney’s VMA performance. It was amazing. Seriously amazing. I wonder why the performance was screwed up on the day itself. Below is the video of the rehearsal without Britney Spears in it. Enjoy.

Btw, I will like to apologize to Sha for not being able to make it for lunch today. Sorry Sha.

Resolution by Nick Lachey

This song expresses the mood I am feeling now.  

Nothing but an empty page
Breathing in an open space
Captured by your moments grace, again
There's so much I left behind
Even more that waits in time
Everything's so undefined
I'm standing on the edge of my fear
And I see it clear

[Chorus]
Here's my resolution, I'm letting go
All I need to learn is along this road
And I just wanna be the best man I can be
Breathe; it's my resolution

Living life without a plan
Finding solice where I stand
Learning how to love again
And all I want is something real
That I can feel

[Chorus]
Here's my resolution, I'm letting go
All I need to learn is along this road
And I just wanna be the best man I can be
Cuz here's my resolution, I'm letting go
All I need to learn is along this road
And I just wanna be the best man I can be
Breathe; it's my resolution My resolution

As the saying goes, love is not conceded,

but I now concede defeat.

I guess I tried.

ps. Lee Ling says hi.

I hate meetings that are not planned thoroughly.

I hate being not informed earlier about meetings .

Fuck.