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I know I have not been myself lately,

always being a pessimist.

It is time for me to change, to regain back my usual self.

No more fucked up , screwed up days anymore.

I promise that I will change for the best.

I would to thank all those who sent me those lovely christmas text messages. Waking up to 15 text messages on Christmas morning, receiving several others on msn made me realize how blessed I really am. Every message had something special in them. Thank you so much you all for brightening up my day.

My next entry will consist of the closing of 2007 for me and also my resolutions for the new year ahead.

For now, it is time to spend the last few days of 2007 happily and gratefully.

Merry Christmas Everyone !!
I would like to thank all my friends who have been there for me . Merry Christmas once more.

James Morrison- The pieces don’t fit here anymore.

Neko got tired of running and jumping, playing around ,

that she decided to join in the festive mood,

by just sitting around,

being part of the decorations on the table.

So long.. Time to bid farewell.

There are only two more days to Christmas. However, before it begins, I would like to make a resolution.

My resolution is to forget and move on from that nasty predicament of mine because I am too tired of crying and being emotional for the rest of the my life.

I have decided to move on and deleting what was left of you in my laptop was another step into slowly forgetting you.

I really hope you are happy now, for inflicting so much emotional pain into me. But, I am a more happier person for erasing you off my memory. For you are just a fragment of the past.

“By letting you go, I am loving myself”

And I have said my piece.

Videos Galore

 Lifehouse- The joke (live)

Ashlee Simpson – Outta my head

Mind my absence from blogging for the past few days. I was on a hiatus from blogging for awhile until I got mind my off certain things. Also,I was occupied with activities and was too exhausted to even think of blogging.

Anyway, school is out already! The long awaited two weeks has finally begun. Well, unfortunately it is only for two pathetic weeks. Can you imagine how fast the holiday passes by? Returning, the adapted project has finally been submitted. Seriously, location video is super taxing. We have to carry around with us the equipment for our production and trying to make sure that our schedule coincides with the actors. Speaking of which, I would like to thank Suffian and Diyana for taking time to act in our short( I mean really short) production. Also, I would like to thank Germaine and her mother for allowing us to use their place for one of the scenes and also extend my gratitude to my production mates , Andrew, Chelmin and Germaine for making this production possible. I know, this sounds like some victory speech for winning an Oscar award but I seriously thank all of them as I did not have the proper time to do so earlier on.

The class trip to Sentosa on Tuesday was awesome. Despite only three quarter of class being able to make it, it was still enjoyable. All of us, as a class , bonded together once again after weeks of being separated by group projects and other sort of activities. We did some tanning, played several games of volleyball and of course had long, fruitful conversations with each other. I am seriously going to miss this class of mine, T105/T110. This is the only class that allows me to be myself , for who I really am. We all engage in intelligent conversations with each other which I totally adore. Sigh, there are only six to eight more weeks till the end of being in first year. I am definitely going to miss my classmates because without them, there would not be a smile on my face each day.

So today is Hari Raya Haji and here I am watching Beyonce’s concert being broadcasted on national television. Unfortunately, they are showing the previous concert, live at Wembley rather than the latest one. Seriously, I really yearn for cable television. There so many television shows that I can simply watch all day. Okay probably not all day, I am not some couch potato and I still have a life though. HA. So what I have been to lately? Besides going to the sentosa trip and shopping, I have been hooked to watching Gossip Girl. Even though the show can get a little ridiculous at times, I seem to enjoy the whole story plot of it and also to admire the glamorous and wealthy lifestyles of all the characters.

Before I end, I shall post up Britney’s new music video, “Pieces of Me” ,that I stumbled upon on youtube. It is so much better than her “Gimme More” video. Britney’s back and we know it .

I have got to go vest and scarf shopping soon. Hm..

Happy Hari Raya Haji to all my muslim friends !

Sometimes I wonder if I am trying to hard, or probably it is how I really am.

I am so close to just giving up, ending this emotional game.

I really am absolutely tired , and self worthlessness starts to develop.

I am tired of the forlorn attempts.

However, I just cannot seem to stop trying each time. Trying to find that special someone.

For all I really hope for, is that simple request to be granted.

I will not lie, I feel empty and hollow inside.

For all the tears I have shed, they do not seem to help.

For the times I have cried, will never make up the pain that I feel.

Sometimes, giving up seems to be the only choice left.

Maybe I am not meant for anyone.

I feel alone. Really I do and I will not conceal it anymore.

No. I am not okay.